We have to stop CONSUMING our culture. We have to CREATE culture. DON’T watch TV, DON’T read magazines, don’t even listen to NPR. Create your OWN roadshow. The nexus of space and time where you are — NOW — is the most immediate sector of your universe. And if you’re worrying about Michael Jackson or Bill Clinton or somebody else, then you are disempowered. You’re giving it all away to ICONS. Icons which are maintained by an electronic media so that, you want to dress like X or have lips like Y… This is shit-brained, this kind of thinking. That is all cultural diversion. What is real is you, and your friends, your associations, your highs, your orgasms, your hopes, your plans, your fears. And, we are told No, you’re unimportant, you’re peripheral — get a degree, get a job, get a this, get that, and then you’re a player. You don’t even want to play that game. You want to reclaim your mind and get it out of the hands of the cultural engineers who want to turn you into a half-baked moron consuming all this trash that’s being manufactured out of the bones of a dying world.
Trust, there is no other word at the moment making me more frustrated than trust. Why does it take so long to build then seconds to shatter. It’s not fair, it shouldn’t be like that. I hate it I hate it, I hate it. The trust is never going to be rebuilt because I will never get a chance. I lost it once and I’m not lucky enough to get it again.
It’s like building a house then having a hurricane tearing it down, the physical element is gone but the idea still lingers, and even though you can rebuild the house it will never be the same, it will always be missing that piece, stopping the house from ever being completely sealed up.
My head is pounding in pain from all the crying.